Hello there life. I'm 32, no family on my own, no children, no husband, have a lots of responsibility at home and on my parents. I'm not happy though I'm good. I'm just disappointed to myself for letting that opportunity go. I'm just tired and emotional. I'm okay but actually not. I want to take a break but I can't. Maybe I'm just depressed and I need someone to talk to.
In yesterday's homily at the Palm Sunday, the priest say when you love, you sacrifice. is this the kind of sacrifice that they want to tell me. But why is it not fine for me because they can't give me the kind of feeling that I want the most- the one being love and given love.. Today is not a really nice day for me. I know, I'm physically fine but I'm totally terrified and wasted and I would say that I'm totally a failure- for myself, for my family, for my love ones, for everyone that believe on me. I don't know what should do with my life. As much as I want to conquer the world and the pressure of time unto me, i think I wanna break down.
In God , we trust. I don't know anymore, I don't know if I can able to continue in this life. I 'm tired and I'm hopeless.
Why is it, signs are getting blurry and blurry but the plane are getting bigger and exciting. Why is it easy for everyone to dream, why is difficult for me to have one. Is my sacrifice not enough? I'm really tired and pressured. I don't feel my purpose at all and I'm having a hard time dealing with so much rejections and disappointments. When will be the time that the 'Yes' and 'I do' will come to my ears. When will be the time when the word 'No' is never be hard to oppose. When will be the time that it's now my time.
They said I'm pretty and young but it's not what I think. I'm ugly and old. I'm getting grumpier and the day would come that I'm not being understtod by others.
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